In real life, this super actress is just a woman who remains
optimistic about her career, the possibility of remarrying and simply
wishes for more hours in the day.
You
have been involved in so many different roles lately. Do you have a
career path you're following?
I'm schizophrenic. I think that if we sat down and looked at my resume,
it's like there's crazy, crazy erratic lines running in different
directions. Before I did Prime it was a no brainer for me and I
had even said that I wanted to do a more personal movie. I wanted to do
very real and earthbound work and I sent that prayer off. I didn't
expect to get it and then it just sort of fell into my lap. It came to
me. I've always wanted to sing and dance and then came The Producers.
I had the time of my life fulfilling that dream.
So that's the great mystery of it all. Some of it seems to take
place by accident. I never would have thought of myself in Kill Bill.
Some of it seems like an answer to a prayer. I guess it's having the
intuition, believing your intuition and what to follow. I think that
it's because there are so many different sides of my interest. It's like
I just wish there were more hours in the day. I wish there were more
days in my thirties. There's so much I want to do all the time and in so
many different directions that I'm just trying to squeeze it all in. I'm
always rushing.
Do you try to impress people
anymore?
I think one of the nice things about getting older is that you stop
trying to impress people. You start accepting yourself a little bit
better [laughs]. That's one of the things I really like. I think
whenever you try to impress people usually it's because you're nervous
and insecure or unsure about how they feel about you, so you usually
make a big fool of yourself in one way or another. I usually get myself
into trouble because I try to crack lots of jokes and then I end up
offending someone, so you know, it's a dangerous game to try to impress
people.
You once talked about having low
self-esteem. How come?
I'm feeling all right now. I think when I talked about feeling low
self-esteem I was talking about the end of my marriage [to Ethan Hawke]
and that makes anyone feel pretty rotten.
So how do you fix it?
Time. No one wants to hear that, but I am discovering that time is
working.
So would you ever consider
remarrying?
Nobody wants me to [laughs]. My friends make me promise I'll never
remarry.
Why is that?
I have no idea. I wish I would remarry again, because I think there's
something so optimistic about believing in marriage. I think it's
terribly beautiful but I'm not imminently remarrying at the moment.
Your next film, My Super Ex-Girlfriend, is about a girl in a
relationship who is neurotic.
She's completely neurotic, completely needy, completely damaged, crazy
and super powered! It's a very broad comedy and it's with Luke Wilson
and Ivan Reitman and it's been really fun.
Did you model the role after anyone?
I've seen enough needy possessive craziness in my life and been through
it myself, seen other people in the throes of it and other people
consumed by it that it's a rich playground.
Was making the movie therapeutic at
all?
It's a very bawdy, broad, broad comedy, so it's terrifying because it's
not everybody's taste. Sometimes when other people imagine you a certain
way, it allows you to imagine it in yourself even though it's just a
part and I really like that. It wouldn't be fun for me for instance; to
go play some tortured woman who she thinks her child is dead right after
doing Kill Bill. You know what I mean?
What kind of emotions do you go
through when you see your movie at a premiere?
I don't think I can remember the last time I saw a movie at a premiere
except Dangerous Liaisons. I was 18 and I sat there and started
sobbing so hysterically that they had to remove me from the theater and
put me in a car [laughs]. That was the last time I saw a movie for the
first time at a premiere. For about 10 years I didn't even see any
movies between Henry and June and maybe before Kill Bill.
I didn't really.
You have said you get nervous the
night before starting a film. Does that still happen?
I never stop worrying. I never stop being anxious that it's not going to
work or I'll make a mistake... It's definitely better than when I was
younger and I really had no reason to think I had any skill at all. Now
I have a little more in the sense of having done different things. I've
enjoyed those experiences and I've learned a lot, but I'm still a
student at heart.
--Steve Sands
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