Court hears disturbing Michael Jackson audio

By Alexandra Heilbron on October 7, 2011 | 5 Comments


Audio files extracted from Dr. Conrad Murray’s iPhone that were played in court this week reveal the voice of a heavily drugged Michael Jackson. His voice is almost unrecognizable and it’s difficult to understand what he’s saying, but it’s clear that he’s tortured by the fact that he had no childhood, having had to work from a very young age. J. Randy Taraborelli, who knew Michael for 40 years, said on The Early Show: “While many people over the years may have felt that Michael was exaggerating this narrative of a lost childhood for maybe the purposes of publicity or career advancement, I think that we see now that, even in this highly intoxicated state, it really was the main focus of his life — the pain and the hurt that he felt at not having a childhood.”

On the tape, Michael is heard telling Murray he wants to build a hospital for children with the money from his upcoming concert series, saying, “I love them. I love them because I didn’t have a childhood. I had no childhood. I feel their pain. I feel their hurt…I hurt, you know, I hurt.” The tape is believed to have been recorded six weeks before Jackson’s death. Taraborelli voiced his concerns about the audio recording, saying, “Any thinking person, you know, who is a friend of Michael’s, who had heard him in this condition would have immediately rushed this man to a hospital for treatment. And I find it very disturbing personally that Conrad Murray was listening to Michael Jackson in this state and instead of, you know, throwing him in the back seat of his car and taking him to a hospital, he is tape-recording the conversation. I just don’t know what to make of that.” Dr. Murray’s manslaughter trial is scheduled to continue for five more weeks.



Comments & Discussion

  1. Karyn • October 7, 2011 @ 12:22 AM

    I honestly believe Michael Jackson and never thought he was a pedophile, Not even for a second. I believe he was very emotionally disturbed and for exactly the reason he states. “A Missed Childhood.” He had physical insecurities as a child does. He built Neverland and invited children to relive what he missed out on. He had “sleepovers with children and I believe in a non sexual nature. Children love sleepovers. All and all. Yes he was an emotional wreck and needed some heavy duty counselling,but he almost literally regressed back into the childhood he missed out on that other kids had. He wanted to experience the fantasy, roleplaying if you will what he never first-handly received. Such a shame to miss out on a very vital part of life, Many Young Hollywood stars have to go through this as well, Some take it better then others and chalk it down to “It is what it is, But Michael wanted something he never had and it pretty well destroyed him emotionally, Mentally and physically.

  2. Germain • October 7, 2011 @ 7:40 AM

    Jackson may have ahd no childhood but he spent his life whinning about it instead of working through it. I mean, there’s people out there that had for worst childhoods and they have a normal life and don’t hear them complain about it all the time. As Pink Floyd said, “It’s just another brick in the wall” and an excuse to take drugs, get sympathy and complain.

  3. Noreen • October 7, 2011 @ 11:34 AM

    It’s harsh to say that unless you’ve lived it. Not having a childhood can really affect people for their whole lives. I have nothing but sympathy for kids in showbiz.

  4. Nonny Muse • October 7, 2011 @ 6:11 PM

    He spent his life trying to help kids, forming charities for kids etc. He wanted other kids to have childhoods, even if he didn’t have one.

  5. L1feless • October 11, 2011 @ 11:54 AM

    Kids who enter showbiz need to understand what they are getting into. their parents do too. Jackson may not of had a childhood but that is no reason to go on benders and complain. As Germain said above. One must face their problems head on and come to terms with them. I do not believe Jackson came to terms with it at all. Rather he was trying to drown in everything that he felt he missed out on. To make matters worse everyone around him was enabling this behavior.


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