He admitted: ''Hedwig is bringing up a lot of super insecure things within me. I have never thought drag was intoxicating, I've never had a fun drunken Halloween in drag, never been in heels, really. I've lived my whole life being attracted by masculinity - it's why I like guys. I'm not a super effete person, and I have to turn into that, and in doing so it brings up a lot of homophobic insecurities within myself.'' But the actor insists he's prepared to put everything into his performance and ''embrace'' the transgender role. He continued: ''Part of Hedwig is Iggy Pop in all of his f***ed-up glory. So I'm looking forward to squatting down in front of the first row and having people spit in my mouth. It's that kind of show. I'm anxious, one night, to fall backwards and be led on my back by people with their hands outstretched. I don't think that will ever happen, but that's the vibe I'm looking for, that's the vibe I have to embrace. I don't f***ing care, you gotta go to a nasty place."